End of another year. Three hundred sixty five days. Around the sun once more, and still the same old me.

It is tiring to write on a keyboard these days, partly for personal reasons and partly because it feels like I am talking to a ghost. In the end, I do not write for anyone else but myself, even if this is a blog. Regardless, this is my summary of 2025. If you are not the type to read a random blog for too long, here is the short version. The year started well. Almost everything I wished for was granted, and most of the things I did not want never happened. But nothing lasts forever.

Somewhere in the middle, the year became hectic, chaotic, and far too noisy for me. It felt like motivational videos were being blasted into my ears nonstop. Eventually, none of that mattered. What I once dreamed of stopped being the dream, and what I never wished for became reality. Somewhere along the way, dreams blended into reality and left me feeling disillusioned.

2025 marked the start of a new academic life for me, but with added responsibilities like a job and other things stacked on top. January and February flew by. When I restarted my academic life, everything felt joyful again, almost like being a teenager. Colors returned, life felt lighter, and things seemed easier. A lot of that came from my job and the lessons it forced me to learn. I figured out how to manage work and studies while still trying to live my life. It can be stressful, but it is nowhere near as bad as it once was.

By the start of July, life had worn me down. Everything felt boring again. Class and work, work and class, with the occasional wave of melancholy in between. I was living in a reality that did not feel like my own. It felt like I was trapped in a dream, as if two worlds had collided and I was standing at the exact point of impact. It sounds dramatic, but it felt very real at the time.

But the sun does shine eventually. Loki said it to Thor, just in a different way. The light did come back. I was still standing in that strange overlapping world, but now it was brighter. Slowly, I started to feel okay again.

From there on, everything rushed past me. Days felt like minutes and months felt like days. Looking back now, it is all a blur. I did what I was supposed to do. I got what I wanted, for the most part. Still, there is more ahead of me, and I cannot afford to fail myself.

I lost many people this year. Some seemed wonderful but turned out to be something else entirely. At the same time, I rebuilt connections with people I had lost emotionally and somehow found my way back to them. That mattered more than I expected.

A melodramatic ending to a mediocre blog. I might switch to writing with pen and paper and upload those here instead. Do not call me lazy, it just feels better this way. This was not a proper end of year summary, but you get the gist.

Thanks for reading. Till next time, take care, and watch some Bob’s Burgers.